Modern Day Romance

Since I’ve become a mother I have struggled. Movies don’t adequately portray life after your baby and certainly exaggerate life while pregnant. My pregnancy had its ups and downs but for most parts it was a breeze. I felt so loved and humbled to be carrying God’s greatest gift to us. There is no love or joy that can take away the feeling of becoming a mother. Yet I continue to struggle with the aftermath of my new status of a mother. When I say struggle, I mean it Ive gained so much weight I could be a Sumo wrestler. If I look in the mirror, I DON’T FEEL SEXY. Needless to say, I'm not the same 15-inch waist girl anymore I'm now a 30 plus woman and bussing at the seams but I embrace her I embrace my new body and love her just the same but a little more. I know my metabolism has changed so I don’t feed her junk food ALL the time but I never neglect to spoil her. It's hard with this image that looms over us of what women is supposed to look like, we idolize women that don’t even look like themselves we scroll seamlessly and look at edited images all day and then we cut our devices off look at ourselves and we start to knit pick. We are our worst enemies we say everything that we need but don’t appreciate what we have. I am guilty of this myself, but that is why I am human. Some days I hate me, I hate the image and my confidence is low, then I feel this energy projected onto the people around me. The insecurities flow in like a wave in the sea I no longer greet with confidence I greet with comparison. The waiter doing her job is now the enemy, the girl who is put together at Walmart is doing too much. Jealousy and insecurities do not mix, it's like water and oil creating a bad mix. I have these moods where I become overwhelmed but that’s when I take a step back, I carried a baby for near 10 months I was in labor for a day and was in active labor for two hours. I am not just a girl anymore I am superhuman. My advice to you is find your anchor. Find something that makes you feel whole, safe, and confident. Don’t wait until a special occasion to wear that 400-dollar dress. Spoil yourself decide who you want to be and show up every day as HER, I promise you won’t regret it!

Thank you for reading my passage babe and I hope you continue to follow me on my journey in life. If you need an ear or to vent, let me know! I am always here. Also, I am a Shein ambassador sign up or link your account to mine in this link below to save money instantly. #ad #shein #selflove